The Good, The Bad, & The Ugly

We all have good days and not-so-good (bad) days. But very few people in the western world experience ugly days. I guess lately John and I have been having our share of trials again, lately of course is relative. As much as I can justify feeling down due to all the crap that Chelsey is going through, I know that I should not use that as an excuse. There are so many people in the world that suffer far greater trials than I, or Chelsey for that matter. To be totally honest however, sometimes it helps for John and I to just cry together and talk. We try not to dwell on circumstances too long as we may fall into depression ourselves. Besides, Chelsey needs us to lift her up, encourage her, motivate her. But, sometimes we feel so helpless as parents.

I'm afraid that one of the aspects of my life that has been most affected by my daughter's illness is my lack of willingness to work on friendships with others. I don't like small talk, life is too serious. I don't want to talk about what is serious, too depressing. So, the easiest thing to do is just let those relationships slide. It is too hard to explain to others what you are going through. And it seems they always feel a need to suggest they understand when there is no way they could. Or worse they feel a need to share Christian cliches. I've heard them all and used them all on myself and others. I'm realizing that people would be better off not saying ANYTHING! Anyway, sometimes I do miss hanging with our former friends.

With all that said, we appreciate those who pray for healing for our Chelsey. Specifically please pray to give the doctors wisdom in knowing how to treat the decease so that she can be stabilized, for her to not have those horrible side effects from all the drugs, to encourage her to keep keeping on with her job, and for new friends to come along side her that have a heart for people who are suffering. And, pray for anything else the Lord put on your heart!

Sometimes I vent in my blog but then don't publish it. I think I will this time. Sorry for the downer!